you live in a house of the body which has become a house of chronic
pain, you are welded and wedded to it all the while wanting like hell
|"Rugs love me, are intimate with me. I know their relative quality, their deepest secrets..." Berger p.37|
a relentless dominatrix, pain makes you cringe from the constant self-referring.
But because you do feel ruined, especially at first, its almost
impossible to do otherwise, though you promise yourself not to complain
in front of others.....
Estranged and burdened, the two labor to make it through the hours, traveling inch by inch through the miles of a day." Berger p.49
there nothing optimistic to say? No benefits to the solitude or confinement?
Nothing good that was harvested?
The house of the body in pain is furnished with inexact metaphors that resist tidy medical labeling, and with approximate descriptions of extreme states. You find yourself at a loss, with language running dry just when needed most...Berger, p.49
the pure possibility of free thought, infinite thought, is set starkly
against the confinement of the body, now unreliable, now restraining
the mind like a quirky harness. .......
pain can neither be verified nor denied in many cases, the person
in pain is doubted---are you malingering or overdramatizing? ---which
only then amplifies the pain. With only vivid, but subjective comparisons
to defend ourselves with, we can hardly communicate at
all. .... Berger p.49
she could no longer sit or stand due to onset of severe chronic pain.
I can't help you, youll have to learn to live with it."
A statement made by an orthopeadic physician at Mass General Hospital,
1984, to Deborah Page age 31, who had lost her ability to earn her
livelihood, and her freedom to move around in the world.
|Rugs Love Me||Chronic Pain is a Relentless Dominatrix||Harnessed by Pain||The Doctor said; I cant help you Youll have to learn to live with it||We cant find anything wrong with you- you must be lying about the pain!||But pain gives almost nothing back||Welded and Wedded to Pain||
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